This life can be overwhelming!
So as I sit here and listen to the 1st Cav Town Hall online from earlier this week, it becomes very overwhelming this life I am diving into. I feel like the new girl walking into the lunchroom for the first time. HAH. Coming from pretty much zippo military background contributes to that. I know the best way to overcome that is by staying in the loop and keeping educated. It’s tough since I am not anywhere near my FH’s base or FRG. I get all the e-mails and try to stay on top of things but being so far away…it’s tough.
I won’t be going to his Homecoming ceremony which bums me out beyond belief. Before we were even officially together, I had told him I wanted to be there. But since he just left from R&R and it will only have been 6 weeks since we’ve seen each other. Not to mention he will be coming to me about a month later for his leave. So to him, he feels like there is no sense. He is a great listener but I don’t think he understands the importance to me. Maybe I’m over-reacting and maybe I’m being too emotional about it. Yes we did just see each other, but for me it’s something different. He won’t have ANYONE there welcoming him home. It breaks my heart to know most all of the other guys will have their wives, children, and family running across the field to greet them and he won’t have anyone. He might say it’s not a big deal to him but…I think he might regret this decision later. Maybe not but…it sucks. Perhaps I’m just an emotional wreck tonight because my hormones are in a flurry. I always turn into a big, hot, mess around that time.
We’ve talked about it a couple times bc it def comes up in convo…but I really try not to dwell on it or get too involved in it because in the grand scheme of things I guess it’s not THAT important. No sense in stressing it for him or arguing or bringing drama while he’s still over there. I have to suck it up and be Army strong right? At least it’s online so I will watch that with my bottle of wine and giant box of tissues. HAHA Just a warning to all of my tweeters to beware because I’m sure that day I will be LIGHTING UP Twitter. 🙂 But, I’ll blame it on the vino.
And as I’ve said before…
I’M SO READY FOR THIS DEPLOYMENT TO BE OVER
I’M SO READY FOR MY SOLDIER TO BE BACK HOME
I’M SO READY TO START THIS NEW PHASE IN OUR LIFE
I’M SO READY TO SEE HIM AGAIN